May 14, 2003

  • ohmyGOD, i just ran into c.j. EAMES at the library!   That tall, dark, husky slice of sex!   I crushed on the guy frosh year like, terminally,dude.  I was so shy fall quarter lugging my private school baby fat, I couldn't even say hi.  Couldn't even sign his damn cast when he broke his foot skiing; I was so afraid I might FAINT right over him and break the rest of his leg.  My skittishness must've set a precedent, cuz even though I lost all the weight by New Year's, now Ceege was all uncomfortable around me, cuz he thought like I didn't LIKE him before or something.   I think he probably lost every last vestige of respect seeing me passed around Carole's friends.   Too bad first impressions are indeliable; even trying to pass the time today was awkward.   He acted super-rushed or as if his girlfriend was gonna pounce on him any second.   I don't think he's serious over anyone, though; too busy getting together his new punk rock band.  He did say they just got a recording contract.   Fuck.  Having a diehard crush sure is the pitts, man.